i hope U read tis.. i donno wad to say to u but srry.. i keep making u angry, pek chek and upset over me.. but i don't even bother to say "i'm sorry".. i hope u'll forgive me.. as u noe dere are many thgs happening in my life.. be it studies, or my stupid teachers in sch.. or even my own parents.. dey gave me alot of pressure tis yr.. on top of these there were many probs i had to face in sch and at home.. da pressure my parents and teachers gave me + da probs i m gg thru rite nw sometimes make me go crazy.. i may be happy nw but angry aft tt.. & smtyms i noe i seemed nasty to u.. i juz donno y.. but i noe u were angry wif me.. though u did nt say it out.. i noe how u felt abt it.. i hope u'll forgive me k? and oso frm tis day on.. i'll try to control my feelings.. these few days.. those teachers who were suppose to council me & talk to me did nt really bother me.. um.. so nt so bad.. sometimes i juz feel tt dey r so kpo.. haha.. um.. even mr steven wee knows abt it.. haiz.. if he noes abt it.. it isn't a v gd sign.. he nw somewad recognises me.. & tt really freaks me out when i firx knew abt it.. nw i juz wan to avoid da teachers.. try nt to walk pass staff rm and all tt shit.. haha.. kinda lame huh? besides these teachers.. my parents nw relax abit too.. dey r nt so strict when guyz call me.. but i noe when u call me tt day.. and my dad picked up da phone.. u quickly put da phone coz u were afraid my parents wld scold u.. haha.. dun worry.. dey won't scold u unless u r a badie.. haha.. u noe wad i mean..? um.. nw i gonna bian guai le.. oh yah.. u still rmb da promise u made to me.. tt if i dun smoke or do those bad thgs u will oso nt smoke and do those nonsensical stuff?um.. i hope u mean wad u say.. and i hope.. everythgs gonna be alrite between da 2 of us..
um.. yest was fri.. i met jeb juz b4 church.. den later.. when it was a little later.. i went to church.. guess wad? da church was having those kinda formal sunday meeting.. smth important lke tt.. so i juz stood outside for awhile den went home.. haha.. coz' i know their this kinda formal meeting v boring.. & actually i gt pian jian against sal army.. nt alot but abit abit lar.. yah.. & oso.. ah ma, sy, hf, cher and many amny mre.. juz wanna say srry to u guyz too.. i forgot to tell u on fri tt i will nt be gg to gb.. so srry.. it seems as though i pang seh u all.. pai seh hor.. very very pai seh.. coz' it was last minute decision.. coz' if i went to da gb meeting i'll be late so i decided nt to go.. srry guyz.. i did nt mean it de.. hope u guyz wld forgive me.. um.. nw my life lke v empty.. v wierd.. v.. i donno hw to say.. it's a kinda feeling tt is totally horrible.. so bear wif my weird character for da moment.. i may be kinda high smth times den later v dao.. yah.. juz telling u guyz nw.. coz' i gt alot of probs these few days.. & i facing alot of struggle wif some ppl.. yupz.. alot of probs lor.. but i can handle de lar.. um.. juz a word of advice.. dun eva do smth against ur own will.. even if forced to.. esp if u noe it's wrong.. da consequences r nv small.. um.. nth to say le bah.. end here.. sayonara!
