wad a dayy..
haiz.. very long since i last blogged.. rather busy these days.. and wad's mre.. there's a prob wif my msn msgner.. uninstall and reinstall still lke tt.. kinda frustrated by it.. yupp.. feeling this kinda weird feeling these days.. and i donno why.. feel sad.. lke wan to crry.. donno how to cry tt kinda feeling.. very xin ku.. had enrolment service not long ago.. well.. i hated it.. to da coree..
ok.. it started when i realise i had no boots the nite b4.. but to my horror.. the next morning.. i realise i got no belt too.. if i know it earlier.. i shld not haf even come.. wad a sucky enrolment service.. and those officers.. i think i better don say anythg abt them here.. but 1 thg for sure.. i was REAL PISSED OFF!!!!! it ruined my mood for the whole day.. i mean.. the belt oso not i wan to lose de lor.. scold me and even say in a sacarstic manner.. say wad haf a demoting thg.. dOtx.. i simply ROLL my small-diao-like eyes.. i cannnn'tttt be bothered.. but for the rest of the day was alrite.. thx to my frends.. and thank God.. i owe God a BIG THANK YOU.. He was reallllyyyy merciful & good.. yupp.. it was cher, ah ma and some of the seniors tt help me.. dey found some extra harversacks.. and made 1 of them into a belt.. cOoL arhx? i still haf it.. haha..
aft the whole service.. had photo taking among frends.. or rather the combine pd de ppl.. and had a mass crying among some gb gals.. cher ans sherry was crying v jialat.. dey were v stressed up.. & their faith in God had weakened.. dey had sorta drifted away frm God.. we [sherry, sheron, shuyuan, ah ma, me] were dere comforting dem.. and well.. dey felt better aft crying.. aft pouring out their sorrows.. we cried wif them.. encouraged them.. and ensured them tt dey r able to walk of their problems.. if.. dey believe Jesus will walk thru wif dem.. but i'm glad tt dey r now better.. =]
these days feeling down.. juz don understand why.. juz don understand why.. i will haf such dislike towards _ _ _ _ _ .. coz i juz feel she is diff infront of guys.. she kinda seek their attention.. den abit act cute.. abit FAKE in other wrds.. i m not here to gossip lar.. but i really donno why i juz feel this way.. i juz.. DISLIKE her.. can't say hate.. haiz.. and i really hope the rumour tt has been spread is juz unreal.. i will be unsble to accept it.. and i will really fan lian wif them too.. tt was wad cathi told the guy party.. she juz say in his face.. cOoL arh? haha..
sometimes feel tt i m so chou.. so un-chio.. fat.. ugly.. dumb.. and totally USELESS!!! i mean.. i juz take it as i m.. coz.. i lost confidence in myself.. i juz don understand why the guys i lke will nv end up liking me but my frends.. frends arnd me.. why why why???? i really cried bcoz of this.. i really wonder.. whether i m really ugly.. whether my character dam lousy.. whether i too ah-lian.. haiz.. den is alwaes the guys hu lke me r all so despotic.. no guy has eva really truly lurve me de gan jie.. feeling very disheartened.. very sad.. haiz.. now.. even if got ppl zhui me.. dey r juz another bunch of despo kias.. haiz.. i really feel v sad lor.. why of all ppl.. me? why did these despo ppl come and find me.. lke me? or rather take me as an extra person.. if dey r single and needs companiant.. den dey come find me.. why??? why me??? i hate u... i hate myself..
end here.. crying..
