haizzzzz.. smtymes juz dun und u guyz.. realli.. coz it's lke u guyz r lke hafing so many inner conflicts.. smtymes i realli wonder if u guys r toking abt me behind my back.. smtymes i realli wonder if u guys hate me coz u feel i'm diff.. as in i've sorta change.. and i realli realli wonder.. if this friendship gonna last..haiz haiz haiz.. y do u guys haf so many inner conflicts.. blah blah.. i feel tt if u tink a person is not gd or wadeva.. tell da person lorr.. i mean dun b soo mean tt u say straight in the face till the person cry.. but try to convey wad u feel in a not so hurting manner lo.. haiz.. really sad..
haiz.. maybe is bcoz i'm in a diff class.. thgs tt happen in ur class and in mine is diff.. den i sorta drift frm u guyz. maybe i'm tinking too much.. i feel tt i dun und y u guyz wld tink of each other in this way or in tt way.. smtymes u backstab each other wif words.. u say mean thgs.. u act lke a meanie mo.. coz u dun lke each other.. but.. i tink we shld these crapz.. aren't we suppose to be frends.. gd frends.. haizz.. if we r.. we shld b frenk to 1 another.. and tell one another their faults and y we dun lke wad dey do.. haiz.. it's not abt gossiping behind their backs.. saying dey r flirts.. so unchio.. act cute or blahs.. to me.. i'm lke a person hu listening to all these gossipings and juz wondering if the person liddat.. smtymes when i noe tt the person is liddat.. i satrt to 'discriminate' tt person too
i'm srry.. i'm really really srry.. maybe i'm too childish.. and mayb a lit stupid.. i shld haf realise earlier tt wad we r doing is sooo wrong.. haizz.. i admit tt somtymes i sorta dun lke this person or tt person coz u guys dun lke tt person.. but nw i tink i gotta chang.. and i'm not gonna discriminate tt person liaoz.. instead.. if i tink the person dam the ****.. i'll juz tell the person..
still rmb i wrote a letter to simin telling her tt i oso once felt she was quite flirt.. but now.. everythg's fine.. i tink i did the rite thg.. if i said bad thgs behind her back.. i'm lke soo darn bad.. a hypocrite lorrs.. but aft writing the letter.. i felt better.. i was honest wif her.. she knew how i felt.. and i felt guilty thinking abt her this way..
gd 5 4eva?? haiz.. guess not.. if we really wan to get back together.. it takes a team.. get it?.. lesss conflicts.. and we've got to accept each other for hu we r.. i mean.. lke for me.. i'm such a meanie mo.. [actually i v guai de.. blush].. haha.. no lar.. i noe i quite mean.. quite siao.. smtymes u guys lke buah tahan.. i'm lke luffing to myself.. self-entertain.. den smiling.. lke so man zhu liddat.. den i noe amtymes abit cannot tahan.. but u gotta accept me.. get it?.. this is juz an eg larr.. i noe u all lurve me wann.. haha.. dotx.. yupp.. it's not too late to get back.. can gd 5 really get back.. i really wan us to get back lehhs.. haizz.. to tink of the happy memories we use to share.. the craziest moments.. the trust for each other.. the lurve.. and many mre.. if we guys juz separate.. tt'll b a BIG waste.. and i noe.. we'l all regret.. haiz..
