bck to singapore.. haiz
finally back to Singapore.. china was fun.. way fun.. saw tibetians.. and i really pity those living on the mountain.. dey r so simple minded.. and dey r lke cheated sometimes.. yupp.. really glad to meet up wif ppl of the same race but wif totally diff lifestyles.. so simple minded and so contended wif everythg.. the tibetians were wayyyy cool.. learned some san ge and san wu.. didn't really get in touch wif civilisation for quite a long time.. i only got in touch wif civilisation when i went to the city.. lol.. was seeing mountains for days.. the food suck.. tt's y i lost weight.. didn't do much shopping dere.. but i'm fine wif it.. saw many waterfalls and i climbed many mountains till i'm sick of them.. but i lurve the weather.. it is abt 7 degrees.. at nite it's 3 degrees.. tt's why dere's heater dere not aircon.. and coz the water is v cold.. whenever i wash my face my face is numb.. mann.. bad experience.. but the water dere v nice to drink.. yupp.. and i still rmb asking my dad if i can go up the ice mountains dere.. coz dey were juz a stone's throw away frm our hotel.. and my dad juz stared at me wif big eyes and said NO.. lolx.. v farni..
at one of the malls i was stalked by a botak.. wah liew.. botak lehs.. not even close to shuai.. so the dotx.. hated the tot of it.. i tink he wanted to steal my $$$ coz i brought my shoulder bag and the pockets are lke haging open tt kind.. cant close.. but dere nth inside.. anywae i pointed at him and told my mum abt him.. den he was lke shock.. and i diao him when he walk pass me.. he was shocked when he saw me diaoing him.. he was so shock he didn't follow me anymre.. yupp.. was kinda farni.. hahahs.
but i did enuff of shopping to satisfy myself.. yupps.. and i realise tt when i was at mid mountain.. coz we stayed dere.. and we went shopping at a small 'city'.. i was speaking in eng wif my bro who was lke crapping awae.. den a little boi. dam cute.. he looked at us wof this v adorable big eyes.. he asked me in chi tt we knew how to speak eng.. i said yes.. den he was lke.. WOW.. and he went to the nxt store and tell his frend.. den his frend came over and look at us.. his mother asked us where we come frm.. so we said singapore.. den she smiled.. dam farni.. den aft tt.. we went to his frend's shop.. his frend talked to me in eng.. so farni.. dey were really cute.. and i juz giggled..
another time.. coz we went to this tea house.. man.. the tea house was wayy farni.. da gal was dam farni.. she tie 2 ponytails.. her face was kinda flat[as in look lke tomato face] and her voice was the cute cute type.. and she was introducing some tea leaves to us.. den my mum, me and my bro burst out luffing.. coz she was dam teh.. den v farni.. den my mum v bad.. she told my bro to take a pic of her.. and yupp dam farni.. and the gal hu greeted us a grp.. she taught us how to drink tea in their way.. den coz it was lke dam farni.. i mean the way she drink.. den i burst out luffing.. and so i didn't try drinking in HER way.. lol.. um.. still got wad ar.. yupp.. we played wif the puppies dere.. dam cute.. v v v small.. lke toy dog.. den v cute.. still got alot.. yupp.. lazy to rite
wah liewwwwwwww.... i v sian lehs.. in a bad mood todae i guess.. was kinda pissed off and angry about everythg and anythg.. dunno why.. mum saes we're gg to china again.. but of cz dunno when lar.. and i tink we're gonna stay dere for awhile.. juz haf this feeling.. coz my mum has diff intentions of gg to china this time round.. yupp.. totally diff intentions.. kinda glad when i heard tt.. yupp.. wadeva it is..
i'm now juz bored.. having a real bad headache.. juz chatted wif sherry not long ago.. and i dunno why.. i was kinda cold to her.. ahe was lke asking me whether i wann to b the commander still.. and ask me some other stuffs.. seriously.. i can't really b bothered wif her.. was kinda pissed off.. i mean not pissed off by her.. but juz pissed.. feeling not rite 2dae.. den i'm lke so occupied and all tt.. trying to squeeze in time for everythg.. yupp.. haiz.. feeling quite stressed up.. was really cold to sherry.. i was lke practically saying orh and i gt no commends for the whole conversation.. was really bad to her.. but i was not in gd mood.. and wad she asked me somehow pissed my ass out.. yeas..
really confuse abt everythg.. trying not to be racist and stuff but i'm trying too hard i guess.. dunno lahs.. i'm trying to accept all races.. but it can be really hard lohs.. haiz.. confused abt HIM Him him.. haiz.. confuse abt wad i m tinking.. really worried my results too.. heard frm zongyang my results.. haiz.. i tink i m gonna haf a emotion breakdown.. it shocked me inside out.. i cried mann.. i told myself not to cry.. but i juz cried.. yupp.. dun wanna look sad.. so i juz tell myself not to tink abt it.. but my results and wad zongyang said to me abt my results.. he said it's dam lan and everythg juz keep ringing in my head.. can't get it out.. tt's y i juz try to keep myself occupied.. and try not to tink too much.. but still feeling really horrible
really scared tt my parents will get v upset abt my results.. feeling guilty and juz totally horrible.. haiz.. my mum wans my grades to be 12 points and below.. [L1R5].. haiz.. really sad cum scared.. dunno to go JC or poly.. haiz.. really confuse.. but i tink even though my mum says she wans me to go into designing course.. she wans me to go uni.. which means to go to JC firx.. dunno lars.. feel tt i really v si bai..
guess singlehood juz totally rawks.. i dunnos lah.. juz read my dear ah ma's blog.. made me tink.. is having a stead better orrrr juz being wad i m now.. single but unavailable.. really dunnos.. i dun und wad is the real meaning of lurve.. and i tink i haf nv really lurve any guys yet.. as in bgr kinda lurve.. i dunno.. haven really experience lurve b4 too..
but to tink abt all my ex steads.. i tink baboon lurved me the most.. and i kinda lke him.. coz our relationship was so simple and so nice, so sweet.. and the tot tt everyday of my life i can tok to someone hu lurves me mre than i lurve him.. i felt tt the experience was really nice.. sweet memories.. yupp.. he is really sweet.. but he can find way better gals than me.. anywae we broke up mainly bcoz my mum was lke aft me wif a cane.. really mad at me for having a boyfriend.. and oso my grades was dropping tremendously.. really terrible.. i got the last position in class.. now i juz wanna remain single.. dun wanna stead anymre till i'm much older.. yupp.. coz i dun lke the feeling of breakups.. really mke me go nuts.. lolx..
wadeva it is.. i dun wanna tink too much.. juz try my bestest best the nxt exam.. and try to be mre hardwrking or smth.. yupp.. trying to look on the bright side of life.. dun wanna cry easily now.. wanna be a strong strong gal.. yupp..
shawn tay told me tt he is v confuse whether he likes me and all tt stuff.. and he oso said tt some ppl i noe.. [i dun wanna mention the names] say i v dao and all tt.. um.. m i really v dao.. but i got sae hello mahh.. dunno lars.. um.. and he say some ppl [ppl i noe] told him to give up liking me.. den i was tinking is it the ah bengs or is it mich dey all..
