wad am i doing mann...
kae. i'm bored. very bored. exams are finally over! end-of-year examinations are over, O'lvl chinese is over... but the damn useless extended lessons are NOT over! wad a sick thg. mkes me wanna puke. these extended lessons are far, far, far, way far from gud. it's lke the sec 3s got lessons frm 8am in the morning to 12.30 in the aftnoon. and the worst thg of all.. this stupid thg ends on 15 November. SIANS. the teachers dun even come for lessons lar. dey juz print worksheets and stuff dem into our faces. wad a whole lot of crap! i didn't noe being a teacher can be TT easy. wadeva. teachers are
NEVER on the losing side anywae.
k, i'm sick and tired of all the crap tt happening around me. ain't feeling gud these days. sick of waking up so early juz for sku. i gotta wake up lke 7.15? so darn early lar. but now i hack kaire. i can wake up at 7.30 or later. i mean... i dun give a shit to it. not juz abt sku.. sku's still ok. as in. i can still tahan. but now i'm oso caught up wif GB. cuz of the farewell camp. many thgs happen to me these days. feeling utterly confuse, angry and a sense of deep sadness within me crys. i'm juz tired and worn out. *sign* sometimes i can't help it but question God why some thgs happen in such ways. but i noe for sure, He has plans for me.. and tt.. ishudn't even be questioning Him. i shudn't haf doubts and.. yeah.. i noe i'm in the wrong. *sign* i'm actually v tired. and worn out. i.. i can't stand the life i;m hafing now. many a times i wonder to myself why so many not-so-gud thgs happen to me. out of the billions of ppl in this world, why me?
*sign* feeling really.. weird, sad, angry, frustrated.. and i dunno lar. i dun feel gud. and i dun feel right within me. cuz of the thousand of thgs tt came my way, it made me seemed so helpless, so small and so weak tt i really become confuse andeven wonder hu am i?
yeah. i noe. dere're many thgs tt i dun wish to tell others and many thgs tt i feel i shudn't tell others. cuz.. i dun really trust the ppl around me. so many times ppl around me, even my loved ones, even the ones i trust the most break my trust, tts why i'll not totally trust a single soul anymre. the most i wud trust is maybe 63%. yeah. i dunno why, but.. it's kinda hard for me to trust others lar. and.. hais.. i very sad lar. too many worries, too many probs, too many thgs on my mind. hais. dun tok abt this anymre. so sian.
ummm.. mummy's whipping up a dish. hee hee. FOOD!!! i lurve food. especially meat. veggies are nice but meat is better. meaty stuff. rou lei. lols. um.. i miss the taste of water snails. especially the ones in Chengdu. dam nice. whoo. this is making me hungry. *drools* i wan my half rare beef steak NOW! lols. i'm so NOT demanding. i'm so sweet, ya? I SAID I WAN MY HALF RARE BEEF STEAK NOWWWW!!!! I WAN IT NOWWWW!!! lols. k. i was juz TRYING to crack a joke. k. tt wasn't farni. nvm.
