*sign*.. yes, it's true tt i was devastated by my O lvl results. i mean the chi results. i was v sad. VERY
VERY sad. scenes of me jumping off buildings, slashing my wrists, me dying, with doctors enable to revive me juz flash thru my mind. juz in an instance. it was my sub-concious mind behind all those tots. i'm glad i pulled thru'. it was tough.
VERY. but wadeva it is, whether my frends were there to encourage me wasn't exactly the main thg [actually it was].
well, i can't say tt those who were there for me were true frends while others were simply fair-weather frends. NOPE. ppl got their differences. and i noe i gotta learn to accept them as they are.
take this for an example, i m a martian, u're an earthling. i can't communicate well wif ya cuz we're frm diff worlds. i've gotta land back on earth, tok wif u b4 thgs can turn out rite. k, this was a lame example. i m a martian? nvm. i feel tt we're still immature in our thunkings. some ppl mature faster while others mature slower. i didn't say you're immature!
[heehee *crosses my fingers*] well, it's only thru maturity tt we'll grow up to be mre sensitive to one another's feelings and tots. so, yup.
i am also at fault. i mean, once. she used to be my good frend, but i was immature, so immature, i wasn't at least sensitive to her feelings. when she needed frends, i abandoned her. now, she's found a new frend, a 'new frend' and i did not say a single sorry to her, but instead disliked her and her 'frend'. how hypocritic of me. sorry. i shud haf used a mirror and reflect on wad i did to her b4 showing hostility towards her. i'm dreadfully sorry. i was SO DARN IMMATURE THEN.
*sign*and also, i wud lke to say..
THE END TIME IS HERE!!! IT IS INDEED HERE!!! if u haf been following the news or somehow heard the news,
[i overheard the news broadcasted on channelnewsasia when my dad switched the telly on] u wud haf noticed the H5N1 virus a.k.a bird flu has hit India. dun u feel it's spreading a lil too quickly? soon,
[my mum told me it is written in the bible] tt the prices of meat wud increase. maybe
[i think] soon there'll not be much 'clean' meat available for man to eat. and lke wad my mumm said. prices of food wud rocket till a bag of barley costs [umm.. i dunno the exact amount] ALOT! yup. and soon, ppl wud be eating human flesh, cuz tt's the only meat available. my goodness. bird flu is spreading lke wild fire, and the worst thg, till now, there doesn't seem to be any stop to it. nobody's able to control it. i feel, or rather my mum feels, we are indeed living in the last days. and indeed, we are.
i'm not scared.
[maybe i am] of wad's gonna happen. i cannot imagine beasts and creatures appearing, mankind falling, humankind suffering and all that out-of-your-mind happenings. i noe you may say, come on pearlyn, you've gotta be kidding, but i tell u now.. NO! i'm not kidding. i hope, tt although when i tell u abt Christ, u pretend to be not listening but in fact u r. i hpe u wud do tt for me. PLEASE! i dun wanna see my frends perish, my unsafe love ones suffering in the pits of fire eternally. it's painful. really. though we squabble, but u're still my frend. tt's why i dun wanna squabble over minor thgs any more. i'm learning, learning to change, but i need time, sorry. my only prayer is : all my love ones wud be save. and i wanna strt. PLEASE, listen to this. it's not some crap or illogical crap.
if one day u see ppl 'vanishing' but their clothes are still there, well, they haf been taken away to meet Jesus. this means tt all those left behind are the non-believers. if tt day really comes, and u're not taken away, cuz u're not a christian, go down to ur knees, pray this prayer:
Almighty GOD, i come to you in Jesus' name. i confess i'm a sinner. i realsie the wages of sin is death. but you love me and sent ur son Jesus Christ to save me.
i believe Jesus died for my sins on the crossand tt He rose again on the third day. i invite Jesus into my heart as my saviour. i ask You to forgive me and cleanse me of all my sins.
thank you Lord for saving my soul and for giving me eternal life. i now commit my life and future into Your loving hands. in Jesus' name i pray, amen.my loved ones, aft praying this prayer[sincerely], you've invited Jesus into ur live, which means u're a Christian. now tt u're save,though u need to go thru' tribulutions, in the end, u'll be save.
wow. wad a long blog. umm. today's a nice day. recieved back a few papers. not satisfied but yup, i noe God helped me thru' alot. so Thank God. He's really wonderful. i've seen myself improve but i'm pushing myself to do better. wadeva the upcoming results may be, i give thanks to Him for His goodness and mercy. yup. but i can't be proud of my results and need to continue to work hard. hey peeps out there, rmb to thank God ,k?
i feel GOOD. XD
