wad a sightful day.
"Should you despair over a relationship gone bad; Think of the person who has never known what it's like to love and be loved in return."i copied this from an email. and i found it meaningful. *sigh* relationships and guys. dun mention dem to me n u'll be alright. i'm not sexist or anythg, it's juz tt i dun wish to haf anythg to do wif BGRs at the moment. yea.
looking at tt phrase i copied frm the email, it made me pause n ponder. i somehw felt tt i nv knew what it's lke to love n to be loved. well, i know i'm being loved [cuz the bible says so] but smtimes i'm nt sensitive enuff to feel it. mayb i'm juz too into homewrk/ frends/ my own personal time. i duno. abt the part on to love others, i'm speechless. i dun even noe if i eva loved anyone b4. for sure, i've never LOVED a guy. as in BGR kinda love. but for family love n love among frends, i juz can't comprehend this BIGGISH word. dun get me wrong, it's not tt i dun lke my frends n family but..... I'VE GOT NO IDEA WAD M I TOKING??????
let me rephrase. i lke all my loved ones but i dunno if i lke dem to the extend called love. i know tt my love ones SUPPOSEDLY love me, but i dun tink they love me, just lke me but not to the extend of love. yup. hope it's nt too hard to comprehend.
well well wells, only God can give me love. He's the only one who can feel up those empty spaces in me. and He can do it for u!!! yup, He can!
i notice i've been mentioning bout love again n again. is tis a symtom? *shrugs* can't be bothered.
my mum says decieving is bad. [duh? wad m i toking] decieving others = bad. decieving urself = ??. i asked my mum tt question n she said "it's bad lar!" since decieving urself is bad, we shudn't zhi zi pian zhi zi. but i noe of many ppl doing so n i'm one of dem.[only for these past few days]
feeling really confuse o'er smth recently n so i end up decieving myself. k, stop luffing at me. i noe it sounds lame. i tink i shan't say it here. cuz it's dam embarassing n u'll most probably tink i'm looney. ya. mayb i m. HAHA.
n oso I GOT A CRUSH ON SOMEONE!! but i dun tink he'll lke me. cuz, we're diff in many aspects. i tink. oh wells. wadeva. life has nv seemed fair for me. [actually it's quite ok, uh. *shrugs*] tt's wad ppl call luck. i dun believe in luck though,
i tink it's pure BULLSHIT.oopsy for wadeva tt happens, i'll juz give thanks unto the Lord.
end here. tatas.
