WAH!!!!! NOOOO!!!! it's not wad u tink.
i duno wad to do. i wanna appear strong, appear happy, appear carefree, but i duno if i hang on anymre. i duno. hais.
pls dun anyhw think. it's not wad u tink. the instance i read the front part of ur blog, i understood everythg. i comprehended y u asked me those weird quest this morning. y do u tink this way? is it bcuz of the alphabets i use in my previous entry. as i'm typing, my hands r shivering, my eyes r tearing. but i juz wanna hold them bck. no, it's not wad u tink, PLEASE! believe me. yes, i admit, i did lie bout my crush thg b4, but HE has nth to do wif my crush. NTH AT ALL. n yes, he doesn't lke me.
ARGHHHHHHH!!!!!! y is everythg falling apart?? can smone juz tell me?? i jus... ARGHHHHHHH!!!!! i dun wanna cry, i wanna be strong. firx, my results. it's bad enuff. my grades are very very very poor. so poor, tinking of it alone can mke me cry to pieces. secondly, my crush. he's so oblivious to the thgs arnd him. his actions r always so.. [i duno wad to say?]. he's flirtatious n, argh, HIS PRESENCE IS NOT MKING ME HAPPY!!! yes, it's just mking me feel sad. thirdly, my mum can't comprehend how i'm feeling these days. i'm in v low spirits. she's angry tt i'm feeling this way. for some reason, she's always tsk-tsking wheneva she sees me down. i can't express myself, get it? tts y i chose.... to hide. plus this prob. NO, it really can't be. i feel so helpless, so beng kui.
i really duno wad to do. please, someone, can u help me. i can't take this any longer. studies, family, crushes, frends..... stop. i can't take it anymre. i need to breathe. i'm sorry, ur blog has greatly bother me. i'm serious.
i'm sorry. it's all my fault. i led u to misinterpret. i'm sorry. i'm really sorry. alphabets can be changed. if u lke, i can change to A/C/ even P? hais. SOMEONE, PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!!!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!
i guess i led u to tink wrongly. n this tinking has been too deep in. sorry. i dun lke any of hu u're thinkin. I TOLD U NOT TO MKE WILD GUESSES!!!! i'm so sick n tired of this. i promise, u'll nv see me mention a single wurd about any of them infront of u EVA AGAIN!!!! in addition, i will NV EVA MENTION A SINGLE THG BOUT EITHER OF THEM IN MY BLOG EVA AGAIN.
my crush has been leading me to many probs, uh?
FINE!!!!
tts the end of 1 chapt.
i'm sorry. thou exmas r over, i feel more pressure n stress. i'm at my wits end. wad i've said i've said. i noe, u'll take a long time to believe wad i'm saying. i noe, but take it as a lesson for me: either tell hu my crush is, or juz not tell.
i need time to recover frm this blow. i can't ensure u tt u'll see me smile again, i can't ensure u i'll be as happy as b4, i can't ensure u this is the real me anymre. i'm now putting on masks. i'm juz so diff. i lied, bla. argh, wadeva. its all in ur mindset. howeva u tink, so shall it be. n yes, i dun see y i'm saying those sorries. u're rite. i take bck all my apologies.
i shall simply log off now. i need a break. explaining a million words is useless without actions. so i shall jolly well log off n occupy my life wif other stuffs to mke me recover frm this nightmare faster.
