i'm so sick n tired of everythg. totally worn out. not juz dnt. everythg. i tink wad i really need, is a proper holiday.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i juz wanna scream my lungs out. i'm seriously stressed out n i'm really way tooooo worn out. i really need a break. i've not been hafing my lunch for consequently 3 days. mon, tues, n today. i'm either too busy or no appetite.
*sign* boy. i noe God's up ther watching over me. i can sense His goodness n mercy towards me. He's so wonderful, but me, i've not been really toking to God. i noe i can't go on lke tt.
wad i need is not physical strength but emotional n mental strength. i guess, i'm too perfect at times. my dnt proj is really nice n stuff, bt mr johari said it might not wrk. tt really mde me dwn. i spent so many hours n so many days on my ferris wheel n nw u tell me it can't wrk. gosh. i'm sooooooooo disturbed. i'm nt angry at anyone, bt rather myself. for nt using my brains b4 wrking everythg out. maybe, ther's still hope, n i'm gonna slog on my proj tmr. *sign* wad a day
cathi's done wif her tangram. fenn too. zy almost done wif it. i, i'm nt sure. mr wee said he'll only buy the bike when sch reopens. gosh. tt's lke freaking long time. n so i can only cut everythg out, file, lacquer n wait for tt dumb gear to arrive. seriously, can't he juz not procrastinate. he said he's busy. bt, oh wells, i dun believe. it may be true, it may nt be. oh wells. wadeva. juz let thgs be.
it's the 3rd week of the hols. i've nt been enjoying my hols v much. n thgs i wanna do, i've yet to accomplish. soon, soon, tt's wad i tell myself.
saw josh today. he scored really well for his Os, bt he entered poly instead. he said either the poorest grades or the second poorest grades ther is 9 pts. tt's so high. whao. his course is smthg to do wif the eye. tt's way cool. bt, it's nt my cuppa tea, so, yea. i still wan my designing course. hahs. let me juz wrk hard.
i'm wrking really hard nw. wrking on my dnt proj. *sign* i juz look on the bright side of thgs. n i really haf to thank God for sustaining me thru this week so far. He's too good for wrds to describe, to comprehend. but all i noe, n all i need to noe is tt he's ther. up ther. watching me.
:D smile smile smile. dun gloom, pearlyn. *sign*
really bothered over him n wad sh said. *sign* mayb i shud juz forget wad sh said n forget abt him. stupid ass. argh. it's juz so hard for me to juz shoo him off my brain. it's as thou he left an imprint ther.
anyw, sy's in hk, hf's on cruise, i've gt dnt. so, once again, gd-5 can't go out, i guess. nvm. it's ok. i'll wait. v v patiently.
lastly, i noe i'm nt tt her. n i'm pretty glad bout it. phew.
