mann. *sign* i tink it's time i blurt it out. it's ALL OVER!!!! whoosh. bang. i feel so free now. mann. 3 months and 1 day. tt's how long it has been. i'm actually glad about it. i prayed tt God wud help me thru it and He did. i mean, he revealed to me the truth that has been blinded frm me these months. now tt i knew the truth, i can finally let go of wad tt doesn't belong to me.
him*
he was the source of my pain. but he made me smile, made me luff and he even shared sm of my troubles. i seen too much of him, i knew too much of him and i dug a pit i eventually fell in. it was a hard fall. but it was a gud one. it made me realise tt i had been living in wad wasn't reality. gosh.
it was so miraculous tt he told me his secret. it was his secret tt made me realise she ain't me. i dun even noe if he even eva liked me b4. since now tt i dun haf those intense feelings for him, i can be kinda laidback and juz let him be? well, i wish him all the best.
i heard he likes her. and she mayb lkes him. or shud i say cnfirm lkes him. well well, it's lke a fariytale. a really sweet one. so sweet, i can only wish them well. he likes her for quite a long time. she liked him for years. they were aware tt they lked each other years ago when they got tgt. but aft they broke up, neither of them knew tt they had feelings for each other still. now, dey know of it, n they're really happy but they intend to get tgt when the major exam ends. it's really sweet, to noe the one u lked for years actually lkes u too. n the sweetest part is tt she was frustrated bout smth tt's gotta do wif him and she confessed her love for him indirectly.
it's sweet but it's the saddest story eva told to me. i nearly cried when he told it to me. i saw his face lit. he lkes her. but i really wonder, was it her looks tt he lked her for all these while? i duno. but i do tink so. and it's the same the other way round. *sign*
wad mre can i do? i eva tot of confessing to him. but i stopped myself frm doing tt. firstly, it wud save me frm futhur embarrasment and secondly, the female lead in tt fairytale is my frend, my schmate, my......... *sign*
i wud one day confess to him. most lkely aft the major exam. but i wonder, wud he be stuck in the middle or wud he juz luff it off n be wif her. though i hpe tt they wud haf a happy ending, i can feel tt deep hurt within me. it hurts but i recuperated fast. now, i'm feeling all jumpy and ok again. cuz, i'm glad tt only i suffer, and tt he din noe i actually lked him.
hahas. all about love. now wheneva i see lovey dovey stuffs occuring arnd me, i juz wish them all the best and for me, i wave adious to love. i daren't go near it now. just for now.
till death we part... adious