gosh. i'm feeling so awful inside. a lil' moody i guess.
so, as usual, my morning started with my usual sleepy eyes. i never seem to get enuff rest. that's pretty weird, esp for a teen lke me. umm.. so mum was yelling at me to get my laundry done. i was referring to my undies. i kinda grumbled under my breath.
sigh and ended up innovatively twisting my wurds.
"mom, my purpose on earth is not to wash undies or socks nor shoes."
"den do u tink it's mine? i've to ur laundry done too. now, get cracking!"
"
sigh i shall invent a machine just to wash undies and socks"
mom shot me the
l-a-m-e look. it also meant get ur laundry done before i return bck frm wrk.
i tink i kinda get onto ppl's nerves easily. cause' i ask cold questions and luff at the most insignificant jokes. lol. and it usually happens in the morning.
i cracked a joke. it
was suppose to be funny.... but somehow..... no one in my family laughed. dad's as noncahlent as before. with occasional whats and a confuse stare. mum just gave me the crooked smile and said 'lame' softly. i begin my series of jokes with this:
me: "auntie cornie's new name should be called lame."
mum: the-huh-look
me: "lame is the new corny. people use to say "that's corny". now people say "that's lame""
and i started luffing. lols. i noe, it's cold.
so tomorrow's my graduation day. wow. i've never looked forward to this day. n i never knew why. i guess though my flesh can't wait to get into my desired course in polytechnic, there's still this urge that holds me back. cause i still do love my current school - PHS. it's only when things start to go will you then cherish it.
i understand how it feels, now, to leave my growing ground.
it's here that i understood what friendship means. it's not as though the girl sitting beside u becomes ur instant best friend and you change ur bestie when ur sitting arrangement is shuffled. i understood what unity is all about. i understood what encouragement means and what it feels to have a good friend to haul u up when u fall down. i tasted the sweetness of love from friendship and entangle myself time and time again from temptations.
most of all, i got a glimpse of what the real world is all about.
i've grown. in body, soul, spirit, mind. and i've matured in some areas of my life too.
but how i wish, i could press restart and play it all over again. i shall pause at the joyous moments and the laughs and i shall replay the victories. let me just skip the downfalls and the cries though somehow they became stepping stones in my life. i shall make an invisible U-turn and rewind happy moments. let's see, how bout restoring friendships? or maybe making new friends? i guess i'll hit the pause button at those moments and replay it again n again.
but when, when would this end?
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ay: k. i'm lazy to tag so i shall just write it here. lol. yea, i've got quite alot of food at home but i'm too lazy to bring it to school. but i won't object u guys from snacking at my house though. lol. anyw, most of the snacks are somewad gone too. u see, my bro has got a size of hamster but got an appetite of an elephant. lol. and also,
sigh we're graduating. we can no longer nibble on snacks in class. boos.
grandma: i noe u've toiled thru alot of pain. i'm referring to the letting go of painful memories. i'm glad u mke it. congrats. though, i believe u've not fully 'recovered' yet, but let time heal open wounds. imagine thrombin converting fibrinogen into a meshwork of insoluble fibrin threads as time healing ur wounds. haha. work hard for ur O'lvls and cya tmr at grad service! God be with u.
