anxiousness is a feeling i can't describe to someone who hasn't experience it before.
i had such a feeling of anxiousness when i realise.... u were kinda afar from my view. thoughts bombard my mind cruelessly. this gave me no space to think. all i wanted was to see if u were still there. but time and time again, u disappeared. i feared for the worst. i will not accept that u had kept out of my sight. your name still appears in my mind. the way u silently stare at me, thinking i didn't know still makes me smile. all i want, is to know you... as what you really are. not just the surface cool-without-a-smile guy.
*sign*i;m gonna shop tomorrow. i wonder if my pay has been deposited into my account. umm... i want my pay! haha. anyway, a few people brighten up my day. haha. it was actually a dready day. customers were few. even during lunch. i was the food abouyer. and i backed chann once in station B cause james was rather new, hence his actions aren't that fast.
the hardest thing to do is to keep deep dark secret just to yourself. not leaking out a single clue...jealousy is such a real thing. it's more than just a emotion. it controls your thinking, and eventually your actions. it's bad, duh! lols. if only it didn't exist. it spoils everything. i just
loathe it. don't wanna elaborate on this.
oh. dudette got a free quilsilver pencil by God's grace. this made me think about myself. though i'm not exactly a lucky person, i don't wanna spout negative stuffs about myself. haha.
today's lunch had nuggets:D yum yum yum.
lols
and i told someone he looked like an ah beng. that chef with a goatie.
*yawn*
i'm bored!!! BORED!!!! anyway, it's not easy to work with girls with pea brains. not that i'm mean. but i think some people's brains are only filled with nasty gossips or what nots. ahhh!!!!! i can't stand it.
i suddenly realise that i've lost contact with many of my friends. i'm too involved in working, shopping..... yada yada yada. i keep telling myself, i wanna meet peanut some day. i wanna meet my secondary school friends, but i always fail to do so. *sign* but i honestly admit, there's an inner struggle to meet them.
oh, and i wanna be more frugal.
let's leave that challenge for next year *wink*
bye cyber-world!
