i don't know what to say. i thought i could just shrug it off. but things are rather diff now. i really wonder if it is the right time for us. we could be said worlds apart but what brought 2 worlds together was a whole diff story. it's gonna be a roller coaster ride. many ups, many downs. i tried to be transparent as how u said, no masks, just being true. but i can't give u my word for being so. though i try hard.
it has been an untrue fairytale. we had gone thru quite a bit but we had so many times of fun and laughters. i have my restrictions, i always tell u, sorry, not now, sorry, got to go, sorry..... but u gave in reluctantly, opening ur doeful eyes with that really pitiful look. we've had lots of wild ideas. more fun. organising this and that, the thought of getaways and many many more. yes, i admit i can't wait to be able to enjoy life with someone who understands me and makes the effort by going all out to understand me, to pamper me and protect me. holding me tight is one thing but holding me tight and allowing me to feel your sincerity of ur heart is another. it takes time to prove everythg and u have proven part of it.

school's starting so soon. a new phase of life welcomes me. i don't know what to expect. uncertainty and the feeling of being a new kid in the block overwhelmed me. i do not hate what ahead, i'm just a boring person who hates changes. a new environment may be a good experience for me. especially the new chapter awaiting for me. it's much diff from secondary school. i know that all's in God's hands. i'll let the Maker decide, for Him to mould my life. it's all in His hands.

even for us. i put it in His hands. a double dose of prayer, a triple dash of the bible and a bucketful of spending time in the presense of the Lord is what i ought to do.

oh no! i'm suppose to go and take my dnt folio today. ok, i need to get moving.