i really don't know what to do. there are hundreds of thoughts rushing through my mind. yes, i know i chose this path, i chose you. But somehow, i can't understand why i did it. i was attracted to u, i admit. but the attraction was not of the appearance, this, u felt the same. i really don't know what exactly to say when u ask me why u, i just stutter and tell u it was a kind of feeling, an attraction that was more than what i saw on the outside. i felt that u had a nice character, a unique personality and i was moved by ur will to change. it takes time n lots of effort to change but... r u?
baby, i really don't know. i'm sorry. u've revealed ur past to me in such a transparent way, u thought my big-heartedness would understand. but... i'm really sorry. i could not accept it. i know, the past is the past. it's not about accepting it. u always tell me, u focus on just the present n the future. u always say wad's done's done. i know it's no point getting worked up because of hu u use to be but if i were u n u were me, would u do the same? i don't know bie, there's so much things i can't comprehend. like what u always do, put ur hands over my shoulder n call me silly. yes, i'm silly n naive, give me some more time to let go of ur past. though i'm still brooding over it.... i want to move on n get over it fast. like what i told u the night before, i don't want ur past to affect me or rather us, but... i couldn't help but brood over it. sorry. *sign* dear, my past also affected u, can u learn to let go too?
i don't care if anyone's reading my blog. i'm just feeling kinda sian now. my hamster just died. my favorite one. n thanks dear for mking me feel better. i'm glad i've got u. really glad. shit. i've gotta get to work. bye world.
baby, let's just let go..... i don't want us to brood over nonsensical stuff like crying over spilt milk.