ok. so, i looked through the stuff that i need... and realise... mann... i missed out the most important stuff today!!! but... nvm. i can't be bothered.

well, i woke up really late today. i have never woke up pass 1 before. even if i am uber tired. well... i slept at 4+, woke up at 10.01, slept again and woke up at 12.30 and slept and woke up at 1.11. wow. late late. feeling lazy lazy. like a bummer.

lol. ok. i really want and need a laptop. all my wants have became my needs somehow. lols. mum is so unwilling to get me one.. because of something. i hope he isn't feeling too guilty. well. i really want one like now? boy.

shall go do my work later. shall call manoj later after brunch. then do my work. then work and work. don't think i wanna have dinner with baby. cause' it's with his family... so weird. esp the thought of..... nvm.. shan't talk about it. i just don't like the idea of dining with his family. i have ate with him n his dad for bkfast.. with his mum and him for lunch but.... nope... i don't like the thought of somthing. really out of the topic.

*sign*

 my poor dog vomitted twice again today. mann. i am really not the kinda who would tender-lovingly dote on it la. colgate[family dog] is totalyy not the kind of dog i would want. he's more suitable for my bro. and yes, bro loves colgate. always gets him new toys and doggie snacks and patting him praising him. and i usually go.. old dogs can't learn new tricks, he's so not the kind of dog i like, don't u think he's kinda ugly? and stuff. yup. but i do all the cleaning up la. and sometimes when he looks so glum i will pat him and stuff. i am v nice to him ok?

i guess to me it's a responsibility. yup. bro is super not responsible. but anyway, it doesn't matter.

ok... it's 5.15. another 15 mins before the downloads are complete. um... i really feel like moving out now. really really feel like. to me, it's more than fun. it's totally mind blowing. lols.

anyway, i am really unhappy with the issue between me and my parents. it just makes me totally pissed. seriously, i can't understand the unresonable demands they are trying to imply into my life, making it sound as though it's so alright. boy, i need a break, ok? well, instead of talking out.. i guess writing out would be much better. cause' they always thinks i am just being argumentative. well, i understand that usually at this age, conflicts and disagreements are very inevitable. i totally agree but... they are just wanting me to find the perfect husband to be the perfect son-in-law. and they are wanting me to be the perfect daughter, christian, student, granddaughter... to be the angel of everybody's dream. well, i want my own life. a life of freedom, choices and dreams.

i want to learn things the natural way. i know what is right and what's wrong. i know the clear division between them. i just wanna be normal. a ordinary girl leading a normal life.

k, i'm tired of this issue. it's so.... uh... wadever.

i'm defintely___________