today's horrible
well. have u ever wonder if u were stuck in a nightmare? and u just couldn't seem to get outta it? or this scene replays in ur mind over and over again but it doesn't bring smiles but this weird feeling that makes u go... URGH
URGH
alright.
today strted off with mum shouting and trying hard to wake me up for morning sermon. i woke up and felt so tired.
then i sat alone in church cuz well, today seemed rather quiet. no one seemed to bother me... so i didn't initiate to sit beside anyone and had many seats to myself.
i met irene on the way out frm church and she being enthusiastic about fashion talked to me all abt it.. and we chatted... and chatted...
she went home. i met up with him since dap ain't free... um... went to XXX mall. everythg went fine. oh ya. he scratched me on my shoulder... and it hurts. gosh. and he passed me photoshop which well has got virus and cant open.
at XXX mall i saw ________. gosh. GOSH. if only HE didnt say that was_______, if only i didn't step into popular, if only we didnt decide to go ther, if only i heede his advice to walk out of the bookshop, if only we walked away, we wouldnt meet________ face to face and OH MY GOODNESS GRACIOUS!!!!!!!! i nearly had a heart attack.
i froze. i didnt know what to do. he too. ____________ too. finally i said lets go and walked away. i saw __________ smiled a little but.... mann.... __________ is my nightmare. my nightmare. i cant get my mind off that scene. it's haunting me. it's bothering me. i hate how everythg unfolded. it's so ugly. the truth the everythg. oh mann. anyw, _________'s a bitch according to him.
RAWR
mann. my fingers turn cold
now all i could do is just NOT to think of it. i tried all means to not think of it just now. i felt real horrible till now. i mean we all saw it. we all knew wad was going on. the truth was out and i just cant accept it. oh mann. i feel so urgh.
ok. cool down, take a chill pill.... umm....
sch's strting tmr and i feel horrible.
at least i'm gg for aftnn class. morning class's cancelled. so that means i can slp more. sch schedule is a straght 12-6. no breaks. boo. i hate the new allocation. it's so bad.... boo. i want my 1st sem class bck. um... i hope they dun break us up into new classes always. it's so unhealthy, that's according to me. hahha. i'm feeling a lil moody over it actually.
u're a big trash can!!!! u are!! u are!!!!