well... sometimes, truths are just truths. no matter how u wish it wasn't like that, the fact is, it can't be changed unless u decieve urself.
somehow conversations with him made me think alot. his smses during our heated quarrel and when we cooled down and chatted over msn. come to think about it. it affected me really badly. till now i cant get my mind off it. i just don't understand why at times things he said hurt me alot. at times, things he said makes me smile so much. the weight of his words meant too much i guess.
i've told myself and promised myself one thing. and i will abide by that. after those smses, i thot alot and thot thru again and again. i feel that yea, he's right. though he kept saying it was outta a feat of anger... but yea it made me cried and i feel horrible.
chatting on msn made me feel better but we digress and we ended up on this topic which was i feel rather sensitive. it gave me many flashbacks and reminded me of the things he ought not said in the past but outta honesty, he said things which... well, i don't know... i guess i didn't feel good after that.
but dun worry, i'll be fine. i'm fine. yup.
u're right. sometimes i guess i am rather obsessed with thinking. i think alot before and after everythg. it has its pros and cons and well, in any way, i can't be bothered now.
i really am alright baby. if u ever read this post... do tag or sms me hons.
i'm really fine. maybe all i need is a good night's rest. and all i need is no more of those wake up at 8 am thing. it drove me crazy. serious. cause... ya between 8 - 9 i was like... aww... it's a horrible feeling. i was pissed but i told myself, chill girl and it worked.
alrittes.
i'm gonna chat awhile, do some research on alldressedup, do some random stuff and sleep.
:D toodles
