well... i hate getting angry but anger is just an emotion i sometimes fail to control well
actually, i hate to know the truth. i don't know i feel really confuse right now.
we quarrel many times. but many times we just got over things. but u know what, things just keep coming back. all those nonsense just haunts. u are right, one month ltr we'll be toking abt this. we didnt strt right and that was wad mkes things so sour now.
there are things i don't know to say, how to say or things i dont know is right for me to say. well, bottling up is better. whenever i say, u blow up too. and we just get angry. anyway, its over alr, so we should forget it or rather i should but this which has never occurred to me in the past make me really ponder.
u are different. very different. special indeed.
trust is vital for a relationship.
do we trust each other?
yes? how much?
u know what? i wish to turn time back. i wish to erase many things. probably we would have been happier, prob u would never have met me. i don't know.
anyw, we haven't been going out often. this hol, i have been spending it alone/with family/ friends
i'm a loner. cause when i am alone, i sometimes do feel happy. i am me, my company - me, number of people involved in it - 1, everythg revolves around me! i chat to me, i try on clothes and tell me to see it, i buy things and ask me whether it is nice, i look at decorations and observe them with me, i people-watch and gossip with me, i dine at cafes and restaurants and tell me how wonderful a day it is. i and me. i am me. the company of one. but yet, it mkes a great company.
but it is fun to go out with u and tell u how pretty vintage bags are, how wallets catch my attention, which clothes looks great on u, where to find lobangs....... etc.
now to think of it
it's better to have u as a companion than me.
cause me and i can be boring. but u and i are never boring.
i dun want any more . smile. brainwash me please.
now santa, grant me a wish, i just want a happy, fulfilled and blessed 2008. all i want is the fruits of the holy spirit and yes, i need a miracle.
