evidences of love....
i am proud to say this week has been sooooo much better than last week cause i finished my work and i'm soooo gonna finish up my skinnies.
hey wait, what about creative storytelling?
like AHHHH.
boo. work work work. and actually, i need to draw approx 1 to 2 more designs. like what the...!!!
i love siew mai. till now, i can't pronounce it right. my tone ain't right u see. hahaha. well, i ain't no cantonese.
i've got nth to write nth to upload nth to say....
i think i shud get over everythg... (read between the lines)
i lived in my world of denial and misconceptions sometimes. till i hear the truth i feel kinda sad.. well, i think i am v quick to judge and when i feel that this person is giving me some telltales i tend to think alot. i guess, it ain't what i think it is afterall.
is saturday night gonna blast or is it gonna be a cool relaxing one. the decision lies in my hand... waaah. i feel mighty.
hee.
anyway, moving on seemed easier after
friday... honestly, you should tell me what u told me earlier. it would save much tears and pain. i was... satisfied with the answer you gave me. i prob understood what u wanted and what u felt was best for us too. also, i thought your answer was logical.
ah. i broke up and i'm single. it has never occured to me that poly life would be this tough till i faced the break up week. plus, dap's comments on her blog and some other reasons led to my devastation.
i admit, i cursed and swear at almost all who offended at me, but i thought to myself, just let go, relax and things would work out fine.
i realise, i ever asked God to teach me to be patient and forgiving, and i guess, things like that train me.
being around kids at work taught me the virtue of patience... and things like that which occur at such a timing which made me feel so sucked into a valley made me calm down and forgive myself and everyone.
honestly, it has been the most roller-coasterish week ever.
deep within, the tears and the pain that subsided and came back i kept within. i felt i had no one to turn to as people would find me a chore. all the while my shell was happy and joyful. bottled within is despair a cry of desperation. i used optimism to divert thoughts. i used work to divert thoughts. would i turn to booze or partying? honestly, clubbing no, booze maybe and trying to laugh things off, definitely. i purposely type in a paragraph cause ppl say i utter rubbish and so i guess most ppl wun read. ah! someone's sucha BITCH my gosh.u be strong just as i be. keep it up and tell me one day, this is my evidence of love.and my bro is hilarious. you know what? he came home and asked me for my name. then he continue by saying his name was ti-ti (our pet hamster).
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toodles peeeeps
