i feel restless
i feel bored
i'm drained out.
but not physically.
gosh. school's starting in about 15 hours time
there's something so magical about the word school
it causes you to be bored and restless
and makes your mind race through what you did during ur break
it makes ur morning seem so dull
and the birds just seem to stop singing
the sky turns gloomy
and the traffic becomes worse than usual
your tummy's would be constantly rumbling for munch-break
the only thing that manages to catch ur senses
and perk you up
is the voice of your friend's yawn
and the diffusion of the water vapour from their mouth on your skin
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i feel so fake at times
i put on a pretense,
and be a happy, enthusiastic, ever-laughing, cheerful, optimistic, big-hearted
i kinda had enough.
i'll just be me.
this is 09
a new year
new year should have new beginnings
it should have new resolutions
and new rules
i finally realise how lonely i am
that with all that hype around me
i am just alone
how many true friends do i have among the thousands?
or how many friends can i even really talk to?
let's not say true friends
i'm a jigsaw puzzle piece
that has yet to find
where i fit in
i just don't fit where i am now
cause' there's this gap
between the right piece and me
boy, 09's gonna rock
i know it would
let me see how my 18th year gonna be like
and change from 08
and i still wish to live on my own
its like a dream most teens want
it'ld be something i'll achieve this year then
or rather try to
i'm sick of naggings.
no one's gonna stop me
from going all out
against the rules
and yes
rock on 09
pearlyn, rock on
