i am in my office, staring at my laptop thinking, whao, friday is here and my log book is incomplete.
i had macdonalds for lunch
and i feel as though my pants is gonna split.
i don't know why part of me is dying to meet him
part of me just wanna avoid him
for once, i felt loved and wanted
but i know, not now... i got many other impt things waiting for me.
i am currently talking to my colleague online
and i'm on skype with daph
at the same time, communicating with edwin, msging some other people...
multi-tasking has become my norm.
if i don't, it does feel odd.
like, i've yet to do something
i check 2 emails a day
and i pick up calls and do photoshop all at the same time
i jot down client's names and notes and also email designers at the same time.
i live in a fast and furious world
and after the magical hand of the clock strucks 6pm, everything comes to a halt.
i'm back to the normal world, taking slow walks and noticing God's creation with a smile
i realise that i tried my best to love someone who doesn't love me all the same.
i realise... all these while, i had you on my mind, constantly... but for you, it ain't the same
i realise many times u silently expect me to be the one coming down, making u feel wanted and love but... well, how about me?
i tell myself, no selfish agendas. be selfless
it's so hard
yest, for the first time, i removed that strong image i portrayed.
i cried.
and wipe my tears with my pillow
even if anyone ask me, are you fine, i would say i am
for i will not reveal my weak side. so, yup, this is me. and this is my personal space which i love to ramble and rant
i have learnt not to expect
for every little thing i receive would be life's little surprises.
life is great, when positivity sets in
for now, back to my rat race in the office
bye world
