i am still at home, stuck to my chair
i dun wish to leave, change and get going
but i know i have to
soon
like real soon
emotions like roller coaster,
adversely affected from the wild thoughts and my creative juices
can't help but think of my job
questions fill my head
i wonder how long would i really stay here
it's not that i am unhappy
it's just a feeling of... swimming in a direction you don't know is right
it's like living a life as though you are walking on broken glass
you don't know which piece is gonna cut you real hard
the small pieces that you fail to notice
or the big ones that you had preamp against and yet somehow it cuts you
pain is a real thing
it isn't just an intangible thing your eye can't see
it's a tangible feeling that cause much distraught, emotional turbulence and mental fatigue.
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snow's now bigger and taller
stronger and barks louder
he understands 'sit' 'jump' and yet to learn 'shake hands' and 'roll over'
he howls at the sound of music, and his fave genre - pop instrumental
he sure knows music uh.
and and and, he loves to play
snatch(it is the failed version of catch)
imagine throwing the ball and he runs back to you. and you have to try to pull the thing outta his mouth.
if you suceed, you win
if you don't, happy snow goes off with his new found toy
lol
ok, time for me to REALLY go off
xoxo,
pearl
