They say there is a season for everything
I think there is a season for break ups
for I feel it's here.
within 2 weeks, i saw 3 couples broke up
that's just sad
it's true we don't have to 'reserve' that special place for the guy we fancy
for love doesn't come knocking on your door like a gentleman
it intrudes unknowingly
many times we hold special desires in our hearts
hoping the guy we like to just like us back
instead of loving someone 100%
i rather find someone who loves me 100%
and i 99%
it's selfish i know
but being a lady, there are much more to lose than the man
recently, i fractured my arm
i don't know if it's bad
but the doc says it's a rare fracture
my arm seemed more painful these days
but i know it will get better
within a short 4 day getaway to redang,
i feel that my life restarted back to 4 months ago
i changed a job,
i have lots of free time now
i realise stuff in regards to love
i am determined to change my lifestyle
i lost and is slowly regaining confidence
at that very point when i needed someone and no one was around,i understood fear and loneliness
it's no joke getting injured in malaysia with people whom you know but... not totally that close to
the realisation of the fracture was also shocking
and the inconvenience thereafter... i totally don't know how to explain
i am a 'fast-fast' person. i hate inconvenience, i hate to be slow
this fracture ain't helping at all.
and i know i can't rely on people to help me do things
like buckling my jeans and bra, i just have to bear with the pain and find a way to do it.
just a note to myself: IF my other half were to experience a fracture or dislocation. i will definitely show LOTS of care even through my busy schedule. for nothing beats the well-being of my other half.
for i understand what it's like to be 'forsaken' and i know it will hurt my other half deeply for a long time if i just carried on with my never-ending work. there
will be a sense of rejection (like seriously)
well, my arm is getting better. much better. i will not forget the nasty redang doc who asked for 150RM consultation fees. he didn't even know it was a fracture and forced me to do IMPOSSIBLE stunts, claiming my threshold for pain is just low. you be glad i didn't slap the a&e records into your face.
oh well, tomorrow is another beautiful Monday.
I do hope this week gets better and I wanna forget nasty memories and restart my life 4 months back again.
xoxo,
pearl
